Wednesday, November 29, 2017


Full circle But maybe it's infinite Discovering new paths that mocks my past delibritely Parallel, paralysis Thoughts becoming cancerous Multiple circles intersecting is blasphemous Full circle I stayed I slayed I observed I prayed I dreamed of escapes I learned from mistakes Heartbreaks. Handshakes. Engramtic thoughts with picture perfect memories Photographic dejavu while we're making history Takes too lifetimes to completely make a list to see that we can only experience and imagine what already exists mentally



Monday, November 27, 2017

I feel the feels of reality even more fierce
my boredom provoked desire for an escape has just reinfored that im still so bored with life and don't wanna do shit at all not even doing nothing even after I accomplished every goal I thought I had, making more money than ever in my life, home by 10pm Mon thru Friday... Got here and realized it's equally unfulfilling as before. Did I get addicted to the struggle??? Everything seems stupid and pointless and I have no option anymore because I'd be an idiot not to keep on truckin for all I've worked for and it's pretty legit.. So obviously my reality and life are on the same page of a shitty fuckin autobiography with and without alteration.

But is that psychosomatic?????

Sunday, November 26, 2017

Sober seems so hard to do when it fills that hole in you
The older we get- our regrets the shit we choose to live with
Our dreams squashed- giving in to a different life than we thought
Bein sober doesn't fill that hole and I really don't know what does
But being alone does feel great when I'm buzzed

Thursday, November 23, 2017

Signs.. even "Satan" possessing me and taking me back, for a reason? Is it what I think? Am I too putting myself there? Is this why I recreated that moment??? Why would I do that. Why did I?

Monday, November 20, 2017

The happiness I want to share with someone is dwindling away in loneliness

Sunday, November 19, 2017

Something's always felt missing to where I've felt alone with others and now I Mostly stick to myself because it's all the same..but what is it that's been missing?? My whole life..not just now.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Sunday, November 5, 2017