Tard

At this point in life almost 38 I've ALMOST come to the conclusion I'm a retard. I'm slow. I'm easily taken advantage of because I'm too kind trusting loyal. This combo makes me a sucker and easily taken advantage of but I feel pity and care while being loyal always trying to make even these people happy. I can't not be nice and loving and trusting while never giving up. I feel horrible when I have to tell (nicely ask) someone to leave my life. So I feel like this has become a handicap to my happiness. Ya, there's other good people out there and someday..... Yeah..in the meantime I get either walked all over naively or I'm alone. Questioning myself when in my heart I know I'm a 100% good person. I guess I'd rather be 100% good to myself, ultimately.