Friday, July 27, 2018


I think I heard my car get beat up

Towards what and why us?

"this is just a foothill in many mountains towards our purpose" seriously, why and why us

We really don't know anything or why but like full circle my poem, we only know what's experienced and then introduced, so now this... Active.


Ignorance and Acceptance

It's a trip to me how some ppl live their life seemingly just fine without ever digging deep into themselves- self awareness, acceptance, etc.. all without self medicating and I always predict some blowup down the road for these people we call it a 'mid life crisis' but then again maybe not everyone is fucked up with things to work on and maybe there's never really anything to work on except acceptance and maybe that's what should be taught by our parents who fuck us up to begin with just like thier parents
So where do we go from here? How do we interject new experiences thoughts ideas lifestyles plans brainwaves processes when we're programmed already to be who we are..the point? Minimal internal conflict that negatively effects life alone and/or with others, ultimately, acceptance of self as a fuck up knowing we all are (different) and there's no normal except the image that "the man" has created to compare ourselves to.. how fine is it to know your worth to know your value your intelligence compassion...but just can't connect with anyone...? how fine is it to hone these things to self til it becomes a nuisance or a curse to think deeply?

Ignorance IS bliss, but once we know, we're no longer ignorant.

Thursday, July 26, 2018

watch this when u get a chance

The illusion of having an ego.

Beating a drum in search of the fugative.
The ego, the illusion of having separate will or eye center cannot be overcome by decisions centered in the ego. Putting out fire with fire. Ego attempts discovered fatal equals illusion discovers separation. Witnessing being pushed around. The knower vs the known.

Thursday, July 19, 2018

#nofilter #nohat 😂 just dePens

1974 Plymouth Valiant

The anniversary that reminded how much I hate Facebook for a decade!

good times always


Kidult. Still.
Adolescent self still sabotaging me.
Life's a combination of extreme boredom and extreme disinterest mainly due to who I am.
Makes so much sense 😂


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His fav sleeping spot lol

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Wednesday, July 4, 2018

Sunday, July 1, 2018