Saturday, August 11, 2018

be you.

Just be you. The rest is just trying to change for the better which is an internal struggle because it's forced.
It's an act. We're always still us inside no matter what put out.
And what do we really put out? Into the universe.. our thoughts.
So no matter what you think you're doing trying to change your core, you still love with you and your thoughts the rest is for acceptance. Based on what we were taught is "normal"
Normal is just a way to act. Manners. That's wtf those are for. Polite. Have manners and be polite and the world is a breeze. The rest is in you.
So accept that. And inside be you accept you know why you're you trace it back figure it out cuz only then can you move forward..with yourself.. you know yourself now love yourself. Love yourself til it becomes sickening and you're forced to share that love and happiness with someone else, for more growing for gratitude for 'moving forward'
Share it before it's gone.. cuz it does plateau..and from there the stagnance turns to downward spirt... And you start over.. believe me I know..
But we're ever evolving, at first a product of our environment and from there, a product of our own thoughts and ideas.. control these thoughts and ideas to only positive... Only associate with those that are humble positive optimistic..this becomes your new reality.
But we're only ever us..born alone and die alone (I am actually a twin tho lol) we must listen to our heart soul and mind and we must learn to trust this voice because this is how life becomes amazing and awesome. On a positive path trusting that voice (god/you) and finding your purpose and happiness..without stigmas without programming without propaganda without outside sources influence.
Be you.
Born you and die you.
Don't lose yourself in between.
It will end and we already know it's too short..and we've already learned in our heart of hearts what feels good, the best.. and that's what we should spend our lives's all love and happiness, that's what it's all about.
I'm 38 and spent 33 (my favorite number coincidentally) miserable as fuck. I didn't realize it til I wasn't anymore and could reflect. And what changed???
Me. Forcing myself to ha g out with my worst enemy, me. And slowly we became acquaintances..then friends.. than BFFs. And I learned about self worth, self esteem, confidence..and that I never had any. And I created some by having to listen to myself when I had nobody and trust myself. Set goals, conquer them. Be proud. Keep going. Be a good person (manners and politeness) and be a better person to yourself. You're BFFs, don't ever let anyone treat you or make you feel worse than you'd accept from yourself. Be you. Grow.
Be you.

We're all fuckin nuts when we stop comparing ourselves to "normal" ( it's a hoax like the rest of America, a Christian business consumer machine where we're supposed to "follow the American dream" were taught but that's how we get into this mess. It's hogwash. America is a large corporation with many business working for them, all part of the machine. $$$ look at the rest of the world, Eastern Philosophy.. shit, even the rest of the western world Canada Mexico etc are happier people. I'm not trying to be political but be aware of being programmed...............who are you with no stigmas or preconceived notions?? When you're alone with yourself... Only you know and will ever know this..but be you.) And being us, is magical...sadly we don't fit in but sometimes we find each other and connect.. sometimes we have auras. And sadly my life is a whole lotta me hanging out with myself and my cat, and I really can't complain, I created this as my safe place, right?
So maybe I should question this:
Why am I really alone so much?
Is it the lack of connection ability?
Is it the social anxiety?
Is it because I stick to my guns knowing what I yearn for, ultimately...I feel?
Shit plateaues....  Like I said.
To where I gotta keep peeling back layers of myself for myself... Like onions and trees maybe the amount of layers isn't time related..maybe it's negativity. The amount of layers or lifeline's dictates trauma or stress not time, but maybe time is assumed because average amount of negativity/stress is global. At birth, when pure and natural..onion human layers.
Just saying, some of us are different. Lotsa layers but worth it. And the layers only take us back to birth... Who we really are. That "us" has been there since birth. The one we fight the one we have the one most are completely u aware of and probably think it's a psychological disorder, seriously tho 😂😂 but it only makes sense. Be you.
Be you.
Find yourself your true self and be you. Know why embrace it love it and never stop being you. We're all us somewhere inside..and hopefully we can hang out sometime.

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